Brett Eldredge - Raymond (Video)

may I suggest you watch this video........WOW(it hits home)!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txCUwSKo1kg

nothing much new(to post)

still refraining from writing a book over here, but let me tell you...some days I sure feel like it! 


As my kids would say.....www.zipit.com!

I really should post here more often......I have so much to say!

But for the most part......I'm sure most of it is better left unsaid!!

The one year anniversary of Mom becoming a resident at Vilna Lodge is quickly approaching. The old saying goes, time heals......in this chapter of my life, time hasn't healed anything......the wounds are still very deep, and are not for a minute....on the mend! Someone tell me how to, not be bitter!

I am however very thankful to those who are always willing to lend me an ear.......I have probably abused your generosity on many occasions!

Just found this on the Alzheimers website!

NEW REPORT ON ALZHEIMERS

WOW!!!! 

I know.......NEVER SAY NEVER!!!

I can safely say.......NEVER in my life have I felt like such a FAILURE!!!  I feel I have failed my Mom miserably......she deserves so much more than she is getting!  

I have sat back and waited for situations to improve(change)trying to avoid conflict for way too long........and now it's too late!  

She probably already hates us, and she doesn't even know what's coming?  

It seems there's no way to help her understand......I wish there was, so instead we will trick her, lie to her!  Do you know how hard it is to lie to someone that simply does not deserve it?  For me it's a killer!!!  

Nothing seems right, I have totally lost my reasoning........don't know what's right and wrong anymore?  

I feel so trapped in all of this......how must she feel?  

Now to plan a move......what, when, how, & why?(we know the where)

This is not easy at the best of times, but it becomes increasingly difficult when you are on a different wave link than some of those involved!  

  

 

Got another dreaded call!!

This morning I found out that a second room is available for Mom at Vilna.........I just want to SCREAM!!!  

I need someone to take over the rational part of my brain function..........mine is DONE!